After my last post, I couldn’t go to my appointment. Whether it was my anxiety or an actual stomach bug I’m not sure, but for whatever reason, I was sick and had to cancel. I did go this week though. I have to say I am relieved a little. I finally found the courage to talk about things that have happened in my past. And when I did he was able to shed some light onto why I do what I do and think how I think. I was shocked when he showed me some information on people with my certain upbringing. That’s right, I’m not the only one! For the longest time I thought it was just me, that I was broken. I thought I was the only person on the planet who felt like this. It feels so good to know that there is most definitely a cause for the way I feel. I won’t go into my story here as he’s told me I should write it, but it should be done in private because I am a very private person and who knows what might come out when I start. Now, I have anxiety over what feelings writing my story might bring up. I’ll start with the very first memory I have. Then, I’ll move onto the next. I have 33 years worth of stuff to work through, so it will be a long process but at least I have a starting point now. I can’t believe that for the first time in a long time I can finally see a future for myself.
With that being said, I’ve decided also to make this blog more about secondlife. There most things are perfect. I have a beautiful home, a man in my life, fun hobbies, and it’s a place where I can be independent. D isn’t on much, so I have the time to decorate and shop and just roam around. This morning I went antiquing..aka gacha shopping, lol. I figured it’s the RL equivalent of antiquing. I found a couple items for the house and went home and put them out. Then I had a nice relaxing bath, surfed around on the net, and read a little. Let me get back to my relaxation. Hopefully there’ll be more sooner than later
♥ Aria Claire Fox ~xx~